Eval season and Easter season; one of the same as a 2nd
class in the Navy. Seemingly unrelated, they both snuck up on me this year.
Being underway since the beginning of March will do that.
Evals came first this year. The way the system works there
are only a certain amount of top scores given. Being a new 2nd class
this year and the pool being naturally larger I was under no illusion to get
one of the top score. But, I have proven myself many times over with the
quality of my work and my generally good work ethic to expect the next tier
down. Like a kick to the chest when I wasn’t looking I get the 3rd
tier down. Come again?! That’s for people who merely meet standards. That’s not
how I roll and the numbers back that up. I was also meritoriously promoted last
summer! How is it that now I am perceived by the command to only meet
standards….?! I was genuinely up set and the more I thought about it the angrier
I got. Not only did I take a blow to the ego, but I felt unappreciated. Also,
on paper, it looks like my performance has degraded severely. This will hurt my
chances at advancing and with any special programs I apply for. I felt like my
chain of command did a real injustice.
Well today is Easter….kinda put things in perspective.
Without God’s mercy and forgiveness we would all be damned. In the grand
picture, a bad eval is so petty. My human nature will continue to remind me
what a crock my eval was, but then I remember something my mom is always telling
us. “We work for Jesus. He is our boss.” I know that I do my best and God knows
how hard I work. He knows my true eval score. When I get all hot and bothered
about it again I will try to remember that I will be accepted into a special
program and/or be promoted with His timing because he is in control. Easier
said than done…
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